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Míngzé Xǔ

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Long story short; [b]I survived[/b]

Nickname

Ming, Zé

Age

Birthday

13/2

Gender

Male

Height

1.78

Occupation

Unemployed

Place of Birth

Cerynia

Sexuality

Bisexual

[h1]APPEARANCE[/h1]
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[blockquote][i]War is a slippery slope. [u]What would you do?[/u], becomes, [u]What will you do?[/u], becomes, [u]My god, what have I done?[/u][/i][/blockquote]
[table][tr][td][h1][b]LOOKS[/b][/h1][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][h2]|[/h2][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td]With a skin pale enough that even snow white would be jealous, he always looks a little bit sick. His eyes are a bright golden yellow with which he could stare right into your soul, if his eyesight had been better. While he is not fully blind, he is considered legally blind, seeining only weird blobs and colors. Is he talking to a tree or a person? How should he know. His deep black hair is always in a high ponytail. Often he is seen wearing simple earrings. Last but not least, his voice is rather deep and cold yet very pleasant to listen to.

During the rp his left arm got burned pretty badly, causing scars covering his arm and the base of the back of his hand. On his abdomen he has a ugly round looking scar from where an arrow has pierced him. [/td][/tr][/table]

[blockquote][i]In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure[/i][/blockquote]

[table][tr][td]Black bird, black moon, Black sky, black light, Black heart, Black Keys, black diamonds, Black out, black, everything black

At least this way he can't wear a bad color combination.[/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][h2]|[/h2][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][/td][td][h1][b]CLOTHES[/b][/h1][/td][/tr][/table]

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[div style="background-color: var(--cockigc); padding: 10px; color: #fff; width: fit-content; font-weight: bold; font-family: serif; letter-spacing: 2px; margin: auto;"]"I survived because the fire inside burned brighter than the fire around me."[/div]
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[div style="padding-left:90px; padding-right:90px;"]Míngzé was born in Cerynia, early in the morning. His older brother, who was five at the time, couldn't wait to meet him and was among the first to hold him, with the help of their parents, of course. Soon enough, they became inseparable, just a happy little family who were very close.

That one kid with the big, weird glasses? That was Míngzé. Even as a child, his eyesight had been poor, but it gradually became worse each year. Doctors feared he might one day be fully blind, but that didn't seem to bother the small child. As long as he had his brother at his side, everything would be perfect.

Things took a turn for the worse when his older brother came home one day, behaving not like himself. Normally, they told each other everything, but now he locked Míngzé out of his room. The next day, Míngzé thought everything would go back to normal, but his brother was avoiding everyone, leaving their home before anyone was awake. It went on like this for a while, and Míngzé thought he'd done something wrong. There were nights he could only cry himself to sleep. Of course, his brother noticed, and at some point, he started talking to him again, but things were different. He was more distant and almost unpredictable. Míngzé ignored everything that was wrong; he was just happy to have his brother back. But maybe if he had asked more questions, worried more, then maybe his brother would still be alive.

They were in the city together when it happened, getting groceries. His brother was very quiet, but that was starting to become a normal occurrence. Míngzé didn't question it; he was happy to be there with his big brother. But without warning, his brother pushed him behind him, started yelling at something to go away. With his eyesight as bad as it already was around that time, Míngzé had no idea what was going on. Two gunshots followed, one close enough to make his ears ring painfully, the other farther away. Up until this day, he still has no idea what exactly happened. Even years later, it is easier to pretend he never had a brother. Due to this event, he dislikes affinities. They are more like a curse in his eyes.

At least his eyesight has been stable for a while. While he is not capable of seeing much, he still sees shadows and colors when it is bright enough. Together with the help provided by Qian, it is enough for him to not struggle.

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[div style="background-color: var(--cockigc); padding: 10px; color: #fff; width: fit-content; font-weight: bold; font-family: serif; letter-spacing: 2px; margin: auto;"]"I can do this, I thought. Then: And even if I can't, I have to."[/div]
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[div style="background-color: var(--cockigc); padding: 10px; color: #fff; width: fit-content; font-weight: bold; font-family: serif; letter-spacing: 2px; margin: auto;"]"Let me fall if I must fall. The one I will become will catch me."[/div]
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[table][tr][td][div style="width: 150px; height: 150px; background-color: color-mix(in srgb, var(--cockigc), var(--gccolormix)); border: 5px solid #e9e9e9; text-transform: uppercase; color: #fff; text-align: center; padding-top: 60px; font-weight: bold; letter-spacing: 2px;"]virtues[/div][/td][td][div style="padding: 70px;"]Something something [b]loyal[/b] but only to those he truly cares about.

Something something [b]determined[/b] something.[/div][/td][/tr][tr][td][div style="width: 150px; height: 150px; background-color: color-mix(in srgb, var(--cockigc), var(--gccolormix)); border: 5px solid #e9e9e9; text-transform: uppercase; color: #fff; text-align: center; padding-top: 60px; font-weight: bold; letter-spacing: 2px;"]vice[/div][/td][td][div style="padding: 70px;"]Míngzé is a highly [b]reserved[/b] person who keeps most, if not everything, to himself. Few people manage to break through his carefully built-up walls to the point where he will talk about personal matters. He has learned how to dance around questions, giving answers without providing any information, changing the subject, or redirecting the attention to someone else. It makes it incredibly difficult for others to get to know him.

Something something [b]selfish[/b] something.

Something something [b]stubborn[/b] something.[/div][/td][/tr][/table]

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[div style="background-color: var(--cockigc); padding: 10px; color: #fff; width: fit-content; font-weight: bold; font-family: serif; letter-spacing: 2px; margin: auto;"]"You slowly realize you weren't meant to save the world, you were meant to destory it."[/div]
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[div style="background-color: var(--cockigc); padding: 10px; color: #fff; width: fit-content; font-weight: bold; font-family: serif; letter-spacing: 2px; margin: auto;"]"I want you to know but I don't want to tell you."[/div]
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[table][tr][td][img]https://images2.imgbox.com/8e/e4/4LVbIP6P_o.png[/img][/td][td]Qiān serves as a valuable support to Míngzé in his daily life. Thanks to his extensive training as a service Pokémon, Qiān is proficient in executing a wide range of commands, and he plays a crucial role in being Míngzé's guiding presence whenever needed.[/td][/tr]
[tr][td][img]https://cerynia.nl/wp-content/uploads/houndour-azula.png[/img][/td][td]Dai was only a small pup when the two of them first met. Míngzé has no idea how it really happened, after some very weird situation, he woke up with the pup in his bed. He has no idea where it came from or how it is even possible.[/td][/tr]
[tr][td][img]https://img.pokemondb.net/sprites/black-white/shiny/eevee.png[/img][/td][td]Info here[/td][/tr]
[tr][td][img]https://images2.imgbox.com/fa/46/ESXaPXPc_o.png[/img][/td][td]Info here[/td][/tr]
[tr][td][img]https://cerynia.nl/wp-content/uploads/bellsprout-spring.png[/img][/td][td]Info here[/td][/tr][/table]

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[div style="background-color: var(--cockigc); padding: 10px; color: #fff; width: fit-content; font-weight: bold; font-family: serif; letter-spacing: 2px; margin: auto;"]"As long as we don't die, this is gonna be one hell of a story."[/div]
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[div style="background-color: var(--cockigc); padding: 10px; color: #fff; width: fit-content; font-weight: bold; font-family: serif; letter-spacing: 2px; margin: auto;"]"I can do this, I thought. Then: And even if I can't, I have to."[/div]
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[div style="padding-left:90px; padding-right:90px;"]Míngzé always believed his biggest fear to be complete [b]loss of his sight[/b]. There were days it kept him awake at night, the thoughts always hunting him. While he barely sees anything, there is still something and he does not wat to loose that.

In 2023 he faced a life changing event. While visiting the beach with Qian, he was attacked by some wild pokémon and he ended up in the sea. This eventually proved fatal. By receiving the Ghost Affinity he got a second chance. With this he learned about his true fear; [b]dying[/b]. Míngzé's biggest fear is dying, the idea that his life will stop and that he will never know what is still to come.

A fear of [b]swimming[/b] still resides within him too. He does not like the idea that there is nothing around him that he can use to navigate. All there is, is a large emptieness with nothing in it. He knows how to swim, but is not good at it.

He likes pokémon, but he does not trust wild pokémon because you can never know how they will react. This ddoes not change the fact that he will give a chance when they come up to him. There is one typing that he will never like; [b]bug types[/b]. Those creepy crawlers often have too many legs and fly way too fast. They have to stay away from him.[/div]

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[div style="background-color: var(--cockigc); padding: 10px; color: #fff; width: fit-content; font-weight: bold; font-family: serif; letter-spacing: 2px; margin: auto;"]"I can do this, I thought. Then: And even if I can't, I have to."[/div]
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[table][tr][td][div style="padding-left:90px; padding-right:90px;"]Míngzé's previous relationship was a tumultuous journey marred by toxicity. The person he was involved with desired to maintain their connection in private, shrouded in secrecy. Mingze sensed a reluctance to be seen together in public, a clandestine existence that left him feeling confined. Simultaneously, this individual displayed a possessive streak, discouraging Mingze from forming connections with others. The relationship was built on a power dynamic, with Mingze's disability perceived as a leverage point. The partner's control extended to isolating Mingze, forbidding him from sharing details about their relationship with friends or family, intensifying feelings of alienation.

This toxic dynamic involved manipulation, with Mingze's partner exploiting his vulnerabilities and making him feel dependent. Verbal and emotional abuse became a norm, undermining Mingze's self-esteem and leaving him grappling with feelings of inadequacy. Affection within the relationship became conditional, with Mingze experiencing love and attention only when it served the partner's interests.

Despite the negative aspects, Mingze found it challenging to extricate himself from the relationship. The fear of loneliness, coupled with emotional dependency, created a potent cocktail that hindered his ability to envision a life without his partner. Mingze held onto the hope that the relationship would change for the better, fueled by occasional moments of kindness or affection.

In the eventual unraveling of their relationship, Míngzé found the strength to confront the toxicity that had permeated their connection. The breaking point came when he realized that the love he sought was nowhere to be found in the clutches of this emotionally draining partnership.

Fed up with the manipulation, possessiveness, and emotional abuse, Míngzé mustered the courage to voice his dissatisfaction. He initiated a candid conversation, expressing his need for a healthier and more mutually respectful relationship. The confrontation likely involved heated arguments, emotional turmoil, and a stark realization that the relationship was irreparably damaged.[/div][/td][td][img]https://images2.imgbox.com/00/57/e2HMBjrT_o.png[/img]

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[h1]RP timeline[/h1]

[table][tr][td][blockquote]While at the beach with Qian, they got attacked. This quickly escalated quickly with him being tossed far into the sea. Something pulled him under, causing him to (nearly) drown. Was offered a second chance, but at a high cost. He does not know what exactly he sacrificed, but when he woke up again, a whole day had gone by and he was left with the [b]GHOST AFFINITY[/b]. 
[h2]—[/h2] Lanyu thought it was a good idea to set his new apartment on fire.
[h2]—[/h2] Got weird ghostly vibes from Sang. Yuck.[/blockquote][/td][td][center][img]https://images2.imgbox.com/4f/a6/RnS0eYKI_o.png[/img] 
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[h3]Trivia[/h3]

— Absolutly [b]HATES USING HIS CANE[/b]. It draws too much attention, while no one seems to notice him when he is just walking around. He has his Inteleon who helps him through daily life, so he believes he does not need his cane. 

— He is [b]LEFT HANDED[/b].

Tunnel vision people say that I'm obsessed
I'm a warrior, I am not like the rest
And I won't back down